Becca Borawski’s Blog

What Makes Being A Woman Amazing

or What I’m Buying and Why I’ll Be Absent a While

Recently I made a decision to purchase what I consider to be a very nice gift to myself. It is something I have wanted for a very long time and something that will have lasting value. Indeed, it is something I will literally enjoy the benefit of on a daily basis for the rest of my life. Although expensive, when viewed in light of its longevity and in terms of the quality of the item, it is most definitely worth the price.

And to my surprise, I have discovered people have a rather strong opinion about what I have decided to give myself. People, without fail, have a reaction to my sharing. Some share my enthusiasm, some are judgmental, some are surprised, and some others are probably hiding from me what they really think.

So what in the world am I buying for myself? Well, first let me tell you why I’m buying it.

I have a clear idea of how I imagine a woman who has reached her full potential appears in the world. She is beautiful. She is strong. She is intelligent. She is feminine, sexy, active, witty, educated, and fun. I think a woman can be athletic and attractive at the same time. I know this, in part, because of CrossFit and the women who populate the CrossFit community.

And yet, working out can in some cases affect the feminine side of things. Which brings me to my purchase…

I love being a girl. I love being girlie. I know, some of you are thinking, “You lift heavy stuff and punch things and I’ve never seen you in a skirt.” Well, that’s just because you only see me at the gym. I love manicures, I love high heels, I love make-up and mini skirts, and I love being a girl. I love being shaped like a girl.

And herein lies the problem – the fitter I get and the leaner I get, the more my naturally unshapely upper body becomes, well, increasingly unshapely. Decreased body fat is nice for your abs…but not so much for your girl parts. I didn’t start with a whole lot and I don’t have a lot to spare.

For many years I’ve wished things were a little different, even previous to CrossFit.   Today, I feel fitter and happier than I’ve ever been, and more beautiful than ever before in my life.  I am diligent about caring for my body on every level.  But there’s always that one thing…that I just wish was different…that I picture differently in my head…and I believe that if something is a consistent complaint, you either accept it and get over it, or you do something about it. And as of now, I’m doing something about it.

At 8:00am this coming Thursday morning I’ll become the proud owner of a set of breast implants. I am considering it an early birthday present to myself and I’m really genuinely excited about it. I can’t wait to fit my clothes better and feel even more feminine, beautiful and complete. I’ll have to take some time off from working out, which honestly, is one of the main reasons I hadn’t done the procedure before. But for me, I feel like the downtime will be an investment for me and in me. An investment in feeling whole and creating myself and my life as I dream them to be.

Which is what it comes back to for me and why I want to speak about this publicly – being a complete woman means I can be strong, I can be muscular, I can be feminine and if I want to rock a mini-skirt I can do that, too. I don’t have to feel bad about being muscular. I don’t have to feel bad about wanting to be a girlie-girl. One doesn’t take away from the other and in fact, it’s what makes being a woman amazing.